The Metamorphosis of Melty Bunny

Pictured here, the wild Melty Bunny is going through an identity crisis and wears the skin of a fictional creature.

2014 is almost over and I'm trying to sum it up. It wasn't that it was a bad year, but it wasn't the best year, either. In fact, I'm thinking back at what I've done this year and...wait, what have I done?

I feel like I've wasted an entire year of my life. While that's not all true, I feel that I could have created some opportunities for myself. I don't think I could be in a whole different place then I am now, but I think I could have done a bit better.

I suppose I should focus on the positives of this year as well, but I shouldn't just ignore the bad or not so good things, as they are learning experiences. I'll start with the bad, to get them out of the way first.

• I haven't held onto a job for very long. I was not fired from any job, however. Medical and personal issues were to blame. I also really want to work for a small company, now.
• Because of the above, money saving of any sort did not really happen as I planned.
• I've been having really bad pains for the last two months or so and I've been sick for about three weeks :x
• For a lot of the year, my depression was really bad. I'll leave it at that.
• I put on a bit more weight.
• I haven't drawn, written, vlogged, crafted, et cetera nearly as much as I should have.
• I haven't made necessary preparations for certain opportunities to happen (such as selling art at a local convention...there's always next time...)
• My "to watch" and "to read" lists are bigger then ever :x
• I have realized that for some reason, I am fixated on the thought of failure. I am afraid of failure and I view everything I do that isn't an instant success as a failure. I have no idea where this came from, but it's really holding me back and needs to change.
• I wanted to clean more :x
• I am sometimes much too obsessed with the past.
• I am lazy and don't take initiative that often. 

But for all the negatives, there are a lot of positives~

• Got Horus the cat!
• I am still alive :)
• I have become more okay with my body.
• Became very close friends with Ashley.
• Stopped talking to someone who was probably the worst to have ever entered my life.
•  Even though I gained weight, I had times where I was really excited about getting healthy and fit, which will help me in the coming year.
• I feel more creative.
• Started a Patreon.
• While I panic sometimes, other times I have obtained a very "it's whatever" attitude. (I look around the bedoom at my fiance's clothes all over and think "it's whatever, it'll get cleaned but I don't have to stress over it")
• Did more of that dressing however I like thing.

Like always, I have high hopes for the new year, and plans that will hopefully be executed. But I'm also going to try not to focus so much on "it's been x days since the new year started and I haven't done y!" or anything like that. I'm also not going to beat myself up if something becomes unable to be completed. But! My goals for 2015 are as follows:

• Join Weight Watchers and lose as much as I can in a healthy way, whilst gaining strength and a better understanding of my body.
• Do art! Always! Get it out there!
• Start a gaming channel
• Update said channel often, as well as normal vlogging channel and this blog.
• Cook more.
• Try to keep the apartment clean
• Reorganize the apartment
• Be happier! 
• DO MORE.

I hope you all enter the new year happily and safely :3

Lolita Tag!!

Hello, lovelies~! I'm going to start posting here more, as I promised. I'm half posting here to keep me awake, as my first day of work is tomorrow and I need to fix my sleep schedule! But also, I've really been in a lolita fashion mood...yet, I have nothing new to post about just yet. So, I thought it would be fun to do a tag! I actually did this tag years ago back on LiveJournal, so it will be interesting to see how I've changed since then (let the cringing begin). If you'd like to do this, feel free to take it!

(1) Screenname and DOB, please tell me these~
Um…depends on where we are, but just call me Bunny. I was born May 28~

(2) height, weight, clothing size and shoe size~
I'm 5'2'', I have no idea what my weight is right now. My shoe size is usually 7-8.

(3) why did you start to dress lolita?
I first learned about lolita fashion when my friend showed me a picture of Mana from Malice Mizer, and I found his clothing brand while doing research. Then when I was at my first anime convention, I bought two issues of Gothic and Lolita Bible.

(4) which style of lolita do you like?

I like all styles, but the only styles I see myself wearing are sweet and classic. I'd like to try hime, too.

(5) express in your own words, the ideal your above answer.
Anything over the top ;)

(6) Do you have piercings? Where?

Just my right ear.

(7) Which brands do you like?

Angelic Pretty, and some of Baby, the Stars Shine Bright's more ornate prints.

(8) Which are your favourite clothes you wear?
Aside from lolita, anything cute.

(9) how many lolita friends do you have?

Only a few now, but they're good friends.

(10) What do you love most about lolita?

Yes. Haha.

(11) What do you hate about it? Pet peeves??
I hate the hate in the community :/

(12) Magazine you read?

I don't read any often, but I do like GLB, EGG, Kera.

(13) Headdresses, bonnets or ribbons/katsushya?

I like ribbons and bows. I like the look of super big and fancy bonnets but I don't think they would look good on me?

(14) Yes to Drawers/Bloomers?

That's like asking if you wear underwear while wearing a skirt, so...

(15) do you tie headdresses at the front or at the back?

At the back under my hair.

(16) Who is your favourite band/type of music?

Right now, a mix between indie/trip hop/ambient and video game soundtracks.

(17) What is your phone ring tone?

The theme from when you catch a Pokemon from the original games.

(18) Do you go to concerts in lolita?

Never have, but I'm not against it.

(19) For people who attend concerts: Do you headbang there?

I don't.

(20) What colours do you like?

Pink, yellow, black...but right now, lavender is my favorite!

(21) What are your hobbies?

Drawing, comicking, writing, playing video games, sleeping, blogging or vlogging.

(22) If you have any favourite perfumes, please tell us.

Coincidentally, L de Lolita (I think that's what it's called?) is a favorite. I also like Juicy Couture and Harajuku Lovers scents, Bond No. 9, and some others I have samples of.

(23) Is there anything you are careful of in lolita?

Um, everything. Crumbs, stains, spills, snags, and knocking things over. Oh, and sitting on my petticoat and flattening it.

(24) Do you have any favourite haunts to go to in lolita?

Not really.

(25) how many times a week do you dress lolita?

It's usually only at events or special occasions nowadays.

(26) Please tell us an embarrassing story when you were a beginner in lolita.

Before I got lolita clothing, I called some of Hot Topic's frilly clothing "lolita." I wore lolita sans petticoat for far too long. I wore very poorly put coordinates and even JSKs without blouses for a bit and just called it "casual." I did very poor makeup and wore my natural hair when it didn't match. I consider myself a beginner still. I'm very careful nowadays so I don't make these mistakes.

(27) Your current hairstyle and colour.
Blue turning green and my roots are showing :( But it will be green, soon!!

(28) What is your lolita history?

After discovering lolita in 2005 I didn't get my first piece of lolita clothing until my first year of college. I was pretty ita up until...maybe middle of last year, haha.

(29) Do you store your clothes in a special place?

I hang them up.

(30) Did you ever think about stopping Lolita? What was the reason?

Sometimes my love for lolita wanes and I feel like I've wasted money on things I rarely wear...which is why my lolita wardrobe is so small. Sometimes I feel very down on myself and feel I can't wear it and look nice.

(31) What is your motto?

Right now...it's more of a phrase from a poem. "Once they [they being your fears and such] are counted and compelled, they are quickly dispelled!"

(31) Your dreams of the Future?

I want to be happy and have everyone around me happy. I want to have my comics and such published.

(33) “This person is so perfect for lolita!” – Do you ever think that about certain celebraties?

No?

(34) Any products/items you have with a fond memory?

All my lolita clothing?

(35) What was your first item?

A big order from Bodyline - Black and purple underbust JSK with a kitty caplet, white blouse, black shoes, white frilly socks, some accessories, and a really tacky wa-lolita bat dress that didn't even fit.

(36) Have you got a pose for photos?

I can't pose well to save my life.

(37) What is your heart’s bible? [book/magazine/CD/etc]

Can I say...a sketchbook?

(38) what is the best cm for heels?

I dunno...I like taller shoes, sort of. I don't like smaller heels.

(39) Do you wear tiaras?

I don't have any.

(40) Do you think you want to try prince style? What kind of prince? Ankoku-kei [Gothic/dark prince]? Or “prince on a white horse” style?

I don't think I could pull that off at all.

(41) What types of lace do you like?

Good lace??

(42) Do you own a doll? Does it give you fun, childish feelings?

No.

(43) What is in your lolita bag?

Since lolita bags are notorious for being small, I usually only have my debit card, apartment key, 3DS, phone, and maybe whatever lip product I'm wearing for touch ups.

(44) What is your favourite flower?

Lilac and lavender!

(45) Right now, what is your favourite accessory?

Probably my only piece of AP jewelry, a bunny necklace.

(46) Please reccommend us some cosmetics.

I like Urban Decay, but I guess some of their products wouldn't be too good for lolita. For foundation and other base cosmetics, I like Benefit.

(47) With Eye-tape your eyes look like a Doll’s! What eyelashes will you wear?

I have western eyes, so...no need for that. Right now if I want super dramatic lashes, I first use Eyeko London's Black Magic mascara, and then Makeup Forever's mascara (I can't remember the name of it). I don't mess with falsies because I'm bad at putting them on.

(48) Your eyemakeup for these eyelashes?

^^^

(49) Red Lipstick? Blue? Black? Pink?

It depends what I'm wearing. Usually I wear a light pink, but for my last coordinate, which was a Halloween witch bunny, I actually wore lavender!

(50) Or which nail polish do you choose normally?

Fake, plastic nails.

(51) Have you ever changed in a train station bathroom?

I don't live anywhere with that good of public transit.

(52) What do you think of ‘twinning’ and ‘triplet’ lolitas?

I find it adorable.

(53) How do you keep in shape for lolita? Reccommend us something.

Yeah, not the right person to ask for this.

(54) Do you keep calm when by yourself in Lolita?

Yes, but I am very aware of the stares, haha. I don't let it get to me, though.

(55) How much do you spend per month on clothes/accessories?

Not much.

(56) Was there a time lag between you knowing about Lolita and dressing?)

Years, yes. I found out about what it was when I was fifteen and didn't start wearing it until I was eighteen.

(57) What is your most expensive Lolita item?

My first AP item, Toy Parade JSK in black. It was a little over $300 secondhand, but never worn by that person.

(58) It takes a lot of money to do Lolita. How do you save?

I'm terrible at saving money.

(59) Just a little secret here…How much have you spent so far on Lolita, roughly?

Not as much as many,but more then others.

(60) Is there a Brand you want near where you live?

The closest brand store is in New York, so, YES.

(61) “Man, what a rip-off!!” Have you ever thought that about a store?

A few accessories I've gotten, but never a clothing item, I think?

(62) Do you shop online? If so, put the good & bad points here to advise others.

I kind of have no other option? Just do your research.

(63) You can say if you want, but is there a Secret person/shop that you have ordered a dress solely for you from? [I guess commissioned/replicated]

No.

(64) “I can never have that/see that happening!! But I will always want it!!” Is there a brand you think this of?

I think this about dresses with a 65 cm waistline. Hah.

(65) What do you do with the clothes you don’t want anymore?

Sell them for new clothes.

(66) What is your most recent purchase? [Even non-lolita])

Probably food, haha.

(67) Is there an item which you love that you can’t buy/seem to find?
The two things I'm lusting over right now are online right now, so I'm good. -knocks on wood-

(68) What do you think of people who only wear lolita to concerts?

Whatever makes them happy!

(69) what do you think of lolitas without makeup?

Well...I want to say that you should do what makes you happy, but also, lolita has a certain appearance and aesthetic, so...

(70) Another lolita is wearing the same coordinate/clothes as you!! What do you do?)

I would think that's awesome, honestly.

(71) What age should you stop Lolita?

I don't know, I don't think there should be an age as long as one wears clothes that flatters their age and shape.

(72) When do you think you should graduate from Lolita? And why?

That's really up to the person.

(73) “You should stop that!!!>_<;” What must you not do when dressing lolita?

Being annoying is never cute.

(74) A lolita should be ‘this’! What do you think that should be?

Herself, a pretty princess :3

(75) Excluding #73, is there anything you should deffinately not do in lolita?

Um...just being rude, I suppose.

(76) What do you think of men in Lolita?

Do what makes you happy!

(77) Did you change yourself for dressing lolita?

No, not really.

(78) What does your family and surrounding people think of you dressing lolita? And do you accept it?

They don't really mind it?

(79) How do you dress Lolita in the boiling mid-summer?

Poorly. I end up dying of heat anyways.

(80) have you gone to School or Work in lolita?

Nope.

(81) How do you dress normally?

Since it's getting cold, just a sweater and pants.

(82) Do you think twice about buying second-hand clothes?

No. I mean, I look at the pictures carefully, but I don't mind it.

(83) Do you have a boyfriend? [or husband?] Does he understand Lolita?

My fiance calls me a cupcake!

(84) Please tell us your ideal man.

My man!

(85) What Lolita has left a big, shiny impression on you so far?

Well...in a good way, Princess Peachie (Ruth) and Frillypinkdreams (Josephine). They're so lovely and inspiring. But a few lolitas that I used to know have left a big and shiny BAD impression!

(86) Have you made your own clothes? What are they like?

I tried.

(87) Have you made your own accessories? What did you make?

I've made some simple jewelry.

(88) The best item you have made! What is it?

?

(89) Please say your most perfect Lolita coordination you wear.

Maybe the coordinate I wore in march to see Sebastian Masuda's lecture, minus the bag?

(90) Do you admire someone? What are they like?

Most lolitas, haha.

(91) One day I will go on a date with that person. What would you like to wear for him?

I wear whatever. I rarely wear lolita with my fiance because it's not practical.

(92) If you want one, what type of store would you open in the future?

Maybe an indie comic/zine/book store?

(93) Your eyes get attracted inadvertantly to something. What is this motif?

Something soft grunge, haha.

(94) Would you dress your child in Lolita?

If they wanted to be in it.

(95) How much do you spend on one outfit?

My most expensive coordinate was maybe around $500?

(96) “This is Lolita!!” Please say what you would say this about.

Softness.

(97) “I have always wanted to try that once!” What, in the Lolita world, have you wanted to try wearing?

Classic and OTT sweet!

(98) Look at you in Lolita. In one word/phrase, how would you express your style/image?

...basic. Haha.

(99) What is your ideal of Lolita?

Something ornate and lovely.

(100) Thank you for taking this Baton!! Please state your thoughts on it!

My answers actually did change quite a bit from when I was younger...oh my.

Current Lolita Wishlist - Classic Lolita Edition!!

I fall in and out of loving lolita. I'll always appreciate the fashion, but sometimes I'm just not that into wearing it or looking at it. But now, I've suddenly fallen back in, and fallen hard. I'm wanting to completely redo my wardrobe and have lots of new pieces to wear and touch and feel pretty in.

I'll always love sweet. I would never sell my Toy Parade JSK for anything. It was the first time I obtained a dream dress. But in the winter, I think I want to try my hand at classic. It's so beautiful and sophisticated, and can be very ornate. As you see from the top photo, I'm loving browns, and loving Angelic Pretty's new releases.

This is Angelic Pretty's tiered JSK in brown. This is my favorite colorway! And best thing, it would fit me with room to spare, haha. It's my new dream dress. It's around $290, which is pretty reasonable for a new print release from AP. I love the tiered fabric on the sides; it seems to be a trend with AP. I also love all the lace, especially the bottom layer. I'm definitely going to be getting it as soon as I can!

And this is Angelic Pretty's Quartet Chocolate skirt in pink. I'm not sure which is my favorite colorway, between the pink, the mint, and the brown. Maybe mint? We'll see. This is another super ornate piece...I think it was released in the international shop just a few days ago? I've only seen a few AP skirts that would fit me, but this is one of them! And it's less than $200! I, um...really want this and might get this soon as well!

Of course these are just examples of things I'll be needing, but since I'm coming from an extremely sweet background, I'll need a whole new set of accessories! Brown and gold shoes, brown and ivory bows and barets, brown and ivory blouses, jewelry...a lot of this I'll probably get second hands. It will also depend on which pieces in which colorways I get. For example, if I get the skirt in mint, I might want a mint blouse, or mint shoes. Also socks, wrist cuffs...I get so excited thinking about it, but I also weep at all the money I'll spend!

Also, um, I want these earrings, but that has nothing to do with classic lolita, haha.

I'm going to my first meet in a very long time at the beginning of December. I hope I'll have one of these pieces by then and can put together my very first classical coordinate! If I don't get these exact pieces, I might get something secondhand for the event. I just am really feeling classic lolita right now. So lovely.

10 Favorite Etsy Shops Part One!!

The holidays are near and it’s time to stock up on gifts and stocking stuffers for your family, friends, or yourself! What better then to give to two people at once - the gift recipient and the gift maker? This is why I love Etsy.

Etsy is like an Amazon or Taobao for homemade and vintage goods as well as crafting materials. It’s most known for having lots and lots of stores by artists on it. You can find anything there, from zines, to wedding rings, to artwork, to clothing…pretty much anything you could think of. 

I am probably going to buy most if not all of my friends’ gifts on Etsy this year. As an artist, I want to do everything I can to support other artists. So I’m going to recommend my favorite Etsy shops, ten at a time. Note that I may or may not have ordered from each of these shops so I cannot always speak for quality and timeliness and such. Also, I’m going to provide a link HERE to my general Etsy favorites list, which is very diverse, and not everything in that list is from a shop I’ll be mentioning.

Kawaii Power Up

Kawaii Power Up is actually the first Etsy store I ever made a purchase from, and a favorite with me and my friend. My review can be found HERE. This shop specialized in cute and nerdy accessories. My favorite items from this shop are the dust plugs! I feel like they are the most reasonably priced - although her shop is very well priced for what you get - and the most unique. The shop includes free goodies with every purchase as well! 

Nerdy Little Secrets

Much like the previous store, Nerdy Little Secrets specializes in kawaii and sometimes nerdy accessories perfect for all cute fashions. However, this store’s accessories are much more softer in appearance. I feel like this shop is a little more diverse then Kawaii Power Up, and has also been open for longer. Their prices are very fair, although wait time for certain items is a little bit long. 

Starlight Deco Dream

Starlight Deco Dream is a wonderful shop. It’s main draw is jewelry and accessories based on anime series, such as Madoka and Sailor Moon. Again, the prices are very fair. My favorite item from the shop right now is the giant “mahou shoujo” necklaces! This shop is a must for fans of magical girl anime!

Miss Alphabet

“Your one-stop shop for all things Barbie, Fairy Kei, and pastel goth!” Miss Alphabet is mostly a clothing store that caters all shapes and sizes. With sparkling fabrics and bows and lace everywhere, this store is great if you want clothing to catch the eyes of others. The prices are a bit high, but everything is custom made and very high quality. 

Bity Kity

Bity Kity is another accessory store, and everything is very pastel pink and purple! I don’t have much to say about this shop that hasn’t been said about the others, but this shop also offers very fair prices. They also have custom and pre made decoden phone cases!

Beagle Cakes Art & Illustration

This shop focuses on very cute and stylized stickers, prints, and cards. Most of the art is original, but there are also sets of Sailor Moon stickers. The shop also offers custom chibi prints! For what you get, the prices are extremely reasonable.

Mayshallwin

Mayshallwin is another store that offers cute stickers, though this one focuses on characters from anime and the like, especially Pokemon. The art is very cute and stylized. The only qualm I have is that the prices are a bit high. For example, for one dollar, you can get…one sticker. However, the owners seem to be students, so it’s a bit understandable.

AW Recycled Journals

I’m a little hesitant to list this shop, because there are so many one-of-a-kind journals in this shop that I don’t want bought up, hahaha! This store features recycled journals, as in, journals that are made from VHS covers, record sleeves, and there are even a few made from board game boxes and cereal boxes! For something this cool, the prices are great. As a journal/sketchbookphile, this store is heaven. 

Ready to Stare

This shop features plus size clothing and statement jewelry, and wants for others to rock the way they look, no matter how that may be. My favorite item of theirs are earrings made from giant dinosaur toys. The prices are great and their models and stock photos are beautiful. This store has a very street fashion/soft ghetto feel.

Thanks for reading!! See you later!!

Music Recommendations for November - I Haven’t Posted Here in a While

Uuuuu yes. I’m sitting on a pile of excuses on why I haven’t been blogging lately (or vlogging, or anything else I’ve said I’d do) but I’ll keep them to myself because no one wants to read paragraphs of that :P Instead, I’ll jump right in with something I haven’t done since May, a music recommendation post! 

Since I haven’t posted in a bit, I can’t quite think of a good theme for this month (I guess I’ll have to wait until next year for Halloween…) so I’ll just post my top five (I haven’t listened to much lately!) current favorites! As always, no download links, but feel free to listen via YouTube!

Musunde Hiraite Rasetsu to Mukuro - Hatsune Miku

Sometimes I’m a very avid Vocaloid fan, and sometimes I’m not. Right now I am not, but this song is still wonderful. If you don’t know what Vocaloid is, I highly suggest you look it up, it’s quite a wonderful thing. This song combines pop music with traditional Japanese themes in a very spooky way!

Anime Janai - Arai Masato

The title of this song translates to “It’s not an anime,” as in, what you are dealing with is really happening and it’s not just a cartoon on the television. This song is the opening to the show Mobile Suit Gundam ZZ from 1986, and it definitely has an 80s anime feel. I’ve never actually watched the show (like a lot of music I’m introduced to nowadays, it’s a favorite of my fiance’s), but in looking it up, it appears it will be released in North America next year! Unfortunately, there isn’t a clean version of the extended version on YouTube, so the live version will have to do.

In the Year 2525 - Zager and Evans

This is a song from the 60s, but I never remembered hearing it on the radio when I was a kid and only listened to what my parents listened to. Instead, I think I heard this in a flash video (again, with the fiancé)? I’m not sure. This song is so very haunting and foreboding, and honestly makes me cry more often then not. But I love it. I love it and it inspires me so much.

Can You Feel the Sunshine - Sonic R Soundtrack

I never had a video game console until I was 9 or so, and it was a Nintendo. I’ve never owned a Sega console and only in the past few years have I played a Sega game. Sonic is one of my fiancé’s favorite franchises, and I remember the first time I heard this song, we were driving around with the windows down, one of his hands holding mine. So it has a happy memory attached, plus it’s just ridiculously happy. This is from the American soundtrack of the very difficult racing game. I was told a lot of people preferred the Japanese soundtrack but I kind of like the peppy, if not somewhat corny, songs from the American release.

Nuclear - Metal Gear Solid V Soundtrack

I should rename this the “songs my fiancé introduced me to somehow” list. The Metal Gear series has always interested me, but I never felt I would enjoy playing it too much. I remember watching the video for this song as it aired live, the living room dark, and covered in chills. While this video I’ve linked is not the same one (I couldn’t find it, and also it makes me cry, haha), it’s still very powerful and morose. 

I hope you enjoy!!

OOTD: Skeleton Delight

Today's outfit of the day post is brought to you by Horus the Cat! Horus: Laying on your shoulder until it's in excruciating pain since about two weeks ago!

Anyway, I wanted to dress up on Tuesday...just because! All I really did was go with my best friend to her fiance's house to watch things. So I present to you, my favorite skeleton dress! Er, my only skeleton dress.

I'm pretending to be a model in a silly pose, haha. The dress is from Hot Topic from earlier this year! Or, last year...?It's brand is "Teenage Runaway!" I actually thought it was a shirt when I bought it, I was very happy to find out it's actually a very comfortable dress! Now for outfit details...

My makeup was pretty simple for the day, but I was wearing a new shade of lipstick - a Revlon shade called Violet Frenzy!

So that's it for this little update! I've actually had this sitting as a draft for about a week, oops!! But I plan to start updating much more frequently now!

Also, shameless plug, I've been updating a bit at my YouTube channel, Melty Bunny!!

How I feel about lolita...?

When I was first introduced to lolita fashion, when I was in high school, I was really into the gothic and elegant look of it. Of course, I was into general gothic fashion as well at the time. I got my first coordinates from Bodyline when I was just starting college - one was a black, white, and purple set that wasn't necessarily bad, and the other set was this awful gothic batty wa-lolita getup that didn't even fit me right.

Somewhere along the road, I decided I didn't like gothic as much, and that I really loved all things sweet and fluffy. All of my pieces since then have been either very sweet or bittersweet, and I haven't looked back. Gothic lolita just reminds me too much of when I was younger and inexperienced, and I feel like I can't be as creative in it. But sweet? Pile on the hairclips and pin on the bows!

But lately, I haven't really felt that lolita kick inside of me. This time last year I was dressing up just to dress up and every penny I earned went towards new dresses. Now, I've sold most of my wardrobe and only wear it if there's a special occasion or if my bestie asks me to. I still love looking at the coordinates that others post online, and I love to draw and create coordinates, but actually wearing it...doesn't really appeal to me right now.

Why? Is it the dresses I have? I've been told by many that I would really suit classic, and I am starting to like the more ornate classic designs. I still like sweet, but I think I like more toned down sweet, like AP's dressed without prints, or more subtle prints (like the Cosmic series).  Maybe it's just because I haven't had any new additions to my wardrobe recently. Maybe I need to clear out what few dresses I have left and start over from scratch. Or maybe I just need another dream dress to hunt after and covet.

Maybe the drama has finally gotten to me? I have never directly inserted myself into lolita drama, but a few people have pulled me into it or tried to start it. I don't really care...but I don't know, seeing others so affected by it...Or maybe it's that there's really been no "event" for me to wear it to, lately. I've had to keep skipping out on cons because of money, and the local comm has been dead. I know I can always wear it on my own, but I just haven't felt like it, plus the weather is only now dropping out of the 90s...

I was thinking last night, maybe I should "quit" and just sell everything, even my dream dress. But would I regret it? Yes, probably. I always thought it was silly that people thought they were too old for lolita. I imagined wearing it all my life. But now that I'm a little older...maybe I am outgrowing it? Or maybe I do need to switch to classic. I don't think I'll be wearing it all my life, that's for sure!

I just wanted to write down my thoughts on the matter.

When do you think you'll stop wearing your favorite fashion trend?

Nintendo eshop Game Haul!!

For some reason, buying games on the Nintendo eshop is magical for me. I think it's just the concept of being able to have all these games on you at once while only carrying one thing. My fiance has quite the digital game collection, both on his Wii U and 3DS XL. I want to build up my collection, too!

We traded in a bunch of stuff the other day, and I got a $35 eshop card! I was originally planning to get one big 3DS game and one smaller Virtual Console one, but then I thought about it and I was able to get four Virtual Console titles, one indie game, and one 3DS title! And I still have a little over a dollar left over! I'm going to need to get a bigger SD card for my 3DS soon!

So I'm going to talk about what I got briefly...I'm not really going to get too in-depth into the games, but moreso my personal first impressions of them. (I haven't had too much time to play through them all, yet!)

I am going to go ahead and say, I do recommend all of the games listed! Some moreso then others, and of course it al depends on what sorts of games you personally like to play, but they are all worth trying and all under $8!

Megaman 

(CURRENTLY ON SALE)

The original. The first. My fiance's favorite franchise. Too bad it's dead. Every time he plays it, it seems really fun and I really want to play it. So I finally bought one! I decided to start with the first for a few reasons...because it's the first, obviously (though fiance called it the hardest, oh nooo), secondly because it was on sale. And it is a lot of fun! It's also really hard! I love platformers but gosh am I terrible at them! But even though I'm constantly dying and I'm stuck at one part, I'm having a lot of fun trying, and I am improving! I also love the simplicity of it and how it's really stood the test of time and is still relevant and fun today!

Castlevania III: Dracula's Curse

Castlevania is another one of those franchises that I've heard about forever but never tried out. Just hearing about it from friends, I knew it was hard. But I love vampires and all things spooky, so I decided to try it out. Much like Megaman, I'm not very good at it, but I am having a lot of fun! Unlike Megaman, the images are so complex and detailed; it's absolutely gorgeous. I love how much work was put into the character and background design. I also think it's perfect to play now since Halloween is coming! 

Color Zen

I rarely find anything that strikes my fancy in the "Indie Game" section of the eshop, so I was very surprised to see something so wonderfully lovely. Color Zen calls itself a puzzle game with no real right answer, a game where you should just plug in your headphones and relax. While I have to disagree a bit with that statement (there are right answers to the puzzles, just many ways to get there), it is indeed quite the relaxing game. I haven't tried all the modes in the game yet, but the main mode is very fun. You are presented with colored shapes on a black background and you must get the main color to be that of the border color. Most of the puzzles so far have been pretty easy, but it's still very fun and satisfying to slide one color into another. The sounds that go with this game are also very lovely and ambient. I know I've already said that I recommend all the games here, but I really, really do recommend this one.

Pokemon Battle Trozei

I'm usually skeptical of Pokemon side games. Mostly because I was so let down by Mystery Dungeon, and I've heard bad things about a lot of the newer side games. But my fiance has this and it looked a lot like Puzzle Challenge to me. And this really is a lot of fun! It is like Puzzle Challenge or Puzzle League in that it is a line-them-up game, but it's also so much deeper. It's providing me with both ease and challenge, and it's really loads of fun. Also...the Pokemon are drawn really cute!! 

Super Mario Bros. 2

I'm sure a lot of people know this, but the American Mario 2 was actually a completely different game in Japan retooled to be a Mario game, while the Japanese Mario 2 is known as "Lost Levels." Because of this, this game does indeed play different then all of the other games in the main Mario franchise. But it still works as a Mario game, and it's still a lot of fun. I mentioned I was kind of bad at platformers, and I am not the best at this, but I'm not terrible. This game also introduces one of my favorite Mario characters, Birdo! This game is one of the classics, so there's really not much I can say here. I've really been in a Mario mood recently; I also bought Super Mario Bros. 3 recently, and that plus this game has sated my needs.

Legend of Zelda

The original. The classic. And I've never played it before! My first Zelda game was Link to the Past, which I loved. However, after a while, I had to print out a walkthrough because it was so hard. I might have to be constantly looking a walkthrough for this game as well! There's no map, no real objective. But that's the fun of it, you get to be a real adventurer; a real explorer. I think this is the game I've played the least of out of the six, so I can't say too much of it, but...it's Zelda. It's the first. 

Life Update: Three OOTDs, Zines, and Etc.

I haven't posted in ages, have I? -_- There's quite a few reasons for that, which I'll talk about later. Firstly, let's talk outfits!

About a month (yeesh, a whole month) ago, me and my bestie decided to get dolled up in lolita and just hang out around the local college campus. Miraiina is actually pretty new to lolita, and this was her first time going out in it! It's something that can be very scary, but she said that having me with her helped, so yay. We really didn't do much, but we did film an OOTD video, which, when it's uploaded, will be linked to HERE. Below are both of our outfits!!

Miraiina's look~!

OP: Bodyline

Socks: Bodyline

Shoes: Bodyline

Purse: Loris...?

Accessories: Many Etsy stores!

Pink & White Delight

JSK: Bodyline

Bolero: Off-brand (Target?)

Socks: Off-brand

Shoes: Bodyline

Purse: Loris

Wig: L-email

Accessories: AP, factoffrills, Etsy, off-brand

My second OOTD came maybe three weeks or so ago? Pretty much, I wanted to dress up, and I wanted to be PINK. Me and Miraiina got matching pink jelly shoes, and I've been wearing them pretty much any excuse I get. Now, I want to say something about this outfit. I'm plus sized. I have fat on me. I jiggle. So I was kind of self conscious wearing these shorts, but I wanted to because I hadn't all summer. And you know what, I felt cute in them. So wear what you want, guys and gals :)

Unfortunately this is the best and only shot I got x_x 

Top: Walt Disney World

Shorts: WalMart

Shoes: A'gaci (Brand is Bamboo)

For the third OOTD, I'm really feeling fall. Fall brings out my inner goth, so I like to wear dark clothes and such. I had a lot of fun with this outfit, and honestly I felt wonderful. I did an OOTD video for this look, which can be found HERE. While I did get a lot of head shots (ahem, selfies) from this outfit, I didn't really get any full body pictures, so I had to take a screencap from the video XD 

I'm going to keep calling it Nu Goth because I can XD

Hat: Forever 21

Dress: Forever 21

Shoes: UNIF

Glasses: Vintage (from my fiance's parent's storage unit!!)

I've been kind of in a rut, lately. I won't really get into it, but I just haven't been very happy lately. I have some things I need to do, but I just can't find the energy to do it, and I end up sleeping through most of the day. Not very fun.

I have discovered a new show which everyone else has already discovered before me - Orange is the New Black! Wowwww this show is so, so good. From the first five minutes, I could tell that it was brilliantly written. I intended to watch it just to have on in the background while I do other things, but I literally cannot look away while it's on! I wholly recommend it! (If you are of the appropriate age, of course ^^)

Something else I've done which hasn't made me sad is CREATE ZINES. I've been in a creative/destructive mood and zines are the perfect outlet for that because they are so open format and can be whatever you want them to be. Like, thinking about them makes my brain tingly (in a good way, of course) and makes me feel like I can do anything. I'll be putting them up on Etsy once I have some printed. I'm planning on making a few different ones right now, but I'm sure I'll end up making loads of different ones *3* I'm going to a used bookstore tomorrow to find some books and magazines to cut up.

Also, I've been oddly comforted by pictures of plants, lately. Plants, fog, and water. Let me show you one of my favorites!!

Daisies! Water! Vintage filter!

Finally writing this, I feel a lot better. I've had this blog page open for about a week and a half, trying to finally write everything up and post it. I've just been so depressed, but hopefully I'll break through it soon. I'm going to edit a vlog I filmed today and watch more OITNB and draw some alien girls or something. I hope you all are having a wonderful day!!

Let's Try This Fitness Thing Again//Two Year Life Plan

So back in December, I entered the world of fitness blogs on tumblr (fitblrs). I fell headfirst into pictures of slim and toned bodies, yummy meals, and self love. By January, I had started working out nearly daily and trying to fix my eating habits. But it only lasted for about a month; my motivation slowly dwindled, and eventually I stopped altogether and went back to my old ways. While I was working out, I had lost about fifteen pounds, but after stopping, I gained it all back, plus the occasional extra few pounds, depending on the day.

I've always had issues with my weight, even though looking back, I was perfectly fine when I was younger, just not thin. I've never been thin. I got made fun of in elementary school, but I didn't think much of it. I was always aware I had extra weight. But it wasn't until a car trip where I was stuffing myself with candy where I looked down at my thighs when I thought to myself "Oh...I'm fat, aren't I?" Of course, I didn't do anything to remedy my problem, only covered myself up more. I remember in high school hating my body, but what I wouldn't give to be that size again.

In the past few years, these issues with my weight and my relationship with food has gotten worse. I've gained a lot of weight due to stress, depression, and an unhealthy relationship with food. Food has always been a comfort thing, or a boredom thing, and living on my own in a dorm only reinforced bad eating habits. I had my periods where I would try to eat healthier or exercise a bit, but I never really committed to anything.

In January, I felt like I was committed to finally changing my life, and I was, but...I don't know, I had the motivation, but not the drive to stay constant. Of course, I was upset about it, but I was getting more and more depressed, so half of me didn't really care. The other half of me was trying to accept myself as I was. I still am. I think everyone should love themselves just as they are. But I also believe that if you're unhappy, make a change, and I am unhappy. I am not the shape I want to be. I am not at the size I want to be. I can't fit into the clothes I want. I am uncomfortable in my body. But more importantly, I'm not healthy the way I am. I eat poorly. I sleep poorly. I don't get enough exercise. I'm not strong. I am not the me I want to be. I want to be a smaller, stronger me. For no one else but me.

I don't know if this time will be "the time." I don't know if I will get to my goal weight. I don't even know what my goal weight is. But I'm going to try. I've been really depressed lately, and feeling like I can't do anything. I haven't been motivated to do anything at all. But I want to do something. I want to achieve something. I don't want to be unhappy with myself anymore. I have to change the way I think - where I feel like everything that isn't a major success is a failure. I have to change my eating habits. I have to change how very impatient I am. I have to change how I plan and organize my life (life planning is nonexistent at the moment).

While I am in this period of not doing much, little things are a success. One of these successes was writing out a life plan of sorts in my fancy purple paper notebook. I'm going to constantly be adding little goals to it and taping it to my wall right behind where my computer is so I can always see it and be motivated. This is a list of goals from now, July 2014, until sometime in 2016.

Work on comics

Get comics out there

Get commissioned

Sell art at MTAC 2015

Go to AWA 2014

Cosplay at Colossalcon 2015

Lose weight

Get strong

Live healthy

Do more art

Get a new job

Always have money

Go back to school

Become comfortable driving

Record an UTAU voicebank

Keep up with penpals

Maintain cleanliness

Plan things out

Get things done on time

Get over fear of failure

I am really excited for the changes I am going to enact. I know they will take time and won't be easy. But I'm going to try. I'm going to try as hard as I can. I'm tired of being complacent, lazy, and not the Bunny I want to be. 

Watch me grow. Watch me turn into a magical girl who can do anything. Watch me become strong, lean, and healthy. 

June 2014 Favorites!!

June went by super quickly for me. And you know, not a lot got done either. Kind of a blah month, to be honest. But in June, the fiance and I purchased lots of games and I did lots of thinking and sketching, so there's that. Here's hoping July will be a better month! I'm going to start working out again, so that will be fun.

Also, this isn't the official post about it, but I just hit 575 (well, 576) followers on my tumblr, melty-bunny! It's not a lot compared to others, but it's a lot to me, and 575 just happens to be my favorite number. So, I'm going to be hosting a giveaway!! It's not up yet, so I can't say exactly what's going to be in it, but it's going to be a lot of things that are special to me, or that I think are cool. I can already tell you Sailor Moon, Pokemon, and lolita fashion are going to be involved, so stay tuned ^_^ GIVEAWAY CAN BE FOUND HERE

Random OOTD from today? Okay. Also, before we get started, let me tell you about my hair trauma (because I don't want to dedicate a whole entry to it). I wanted the blue and pink out of my hair and wanted just a nice, normal lighter brown in my hair...and it was an ordeal. First I used a color stripper/remover product to remove the colors...but it barely worked. Then I thought, maybe the dye could cover it up anyways and it would just be darker. Nope. It looked really ugly. So I had to go out and get bleach, let it sit on as long as possible without my hair falling off and it almost got all the color out. Tried dying it again and it's...well, the parts that were pink are a cute color, but the parts that were blue is kind of a dull ashy color, plus that area got really destroyed by the bleach, so it's all frizzy and gross. But, I'm done messing with it for now. If I do anything with it, I'll dye it a little darker brown. No more bleaching or weird colors for me for a while. And definitely no cutting it. I want it to at least be at my shoulders, if not longer.

ANYWAY, onto my monthly favorites~

Let's start with my only beauty product for the month - Tarte's Lipsurgence in what I think is the shade Lust. I got a mini of these in a set my parents I got for my birthday (which is why I don't know the shade; it doesn't say on the packaging). I haven't worn much makeup at all or dressed up often in June because it's so hot. But this is a great product to just throw on alone or paired with other products, and it looks great and stays on long. I first learned about the brand Tarte through grav3yardgirl's videos, and had never really tried anything by them before. This product is very smooth and doesn't dry your lips out like a lot of other lip tints do. You can find this product at Tarte's website, Sephora, and Ulta for a little over $20.

I guess I do have another beauty favorite, sort of. This isn't so much a favorite yet as I know it will be in the future. I briefly mentioned Taobao in my post about plus size lolita fashion; it's a Chinese website that hosts thousands and thousands of stores that sell everything from clothing to furniture to electronics, kind of like Amazon. I had said in that post that Taobao slightly intimidated me and I had never ordered from them yet, as you need a shopping service to do so. But recently I've just spent literally days browsing shop after shop, searching for something and finding so much of it. Street fashion? Anime paraphernalia? Plus size clothing options? Makeup? They have everything I could want and more. And everything is SO AFFORDABLE. It looks a little intimidating, because everything is in yuan...but 400 yuan? That's a little over 60 US dollars. Yeah. And I have to look hard to find something that I would want to buy that is that expensive, anyways. It's the shipping and shopping service fees that are what drive the price up. I haven't ordered anything from Taobao yet, but I have a few hundred bookmarks dedicated to things I'd like to purchase. I want to solely order all my clothes and gifts and plushes from there from now on!! Next time I have some money to spare, I'm definitely placing an order. Expect a haul soonish!

Next is something else that I received for my birthday, this little red Keurig! Doesn't it look so retro? Anyone who knows me knows I have a serious coffee and tea addiction and love going out to Starbucks. This severely cuts down on those Starbucks trips, as I can have creamy iced coffee or a flavored iced tea any time I want! So far my favorite flavors have been Donut Shop's original iced coffee and the raspberry iced tea by...snapple, I think? But there are so many other flavors to try! I have to be good and not drink four cups of coffee in one day, hahaha. This Keurig is a lesson in moderation, heh.

I mentioned these stickers in an older post where I talked about things I wanted to purchase in the near future. And I did! These stickers are the creation of artist Kaiami. All together, plus shipping, they only cost $17. I have them on everything, pretty much. They are so much cuter in person!! And, um, through a shipping error I happen to have two sets of each, and she told me just to keep the extras! How nice!! The extra sheets are taped to my wall currently, but maybe I should include them in my tumblr giveaway, hmm?

I have a notebook and sketchbook fetish. There, I said it. It's a problem. I see a cute blank book, I get attached, then suddenly I end up with a whole shelf full of half-used journals and sketchbooks. Anyway, this cute sketchbook is a Barnes and Noble exclusive I bought during a trip to the Vanderbilt store, and it was pretty cheap too. The best part? All the pages are perforated! Also, this sketchbook has been covered in stickers.

I made a whole post about Vocaloid. It's no surprise I would purchase a new Project Diva game. Hatsune Miku Project Diva F is the first Project Diva game to appear on the PS3. It's loads of fun, but it does have a few flaws. I've been meaning to write a whole review of the game, but I've never really done a review on a video game before, so it's a bit intimidating to do so. But, hopefully this month I will. As always, there are tons of fun songs and loads of modules, room pieces, and other things to unlock. I've pretty much been addicted to this the first half of June.

Mario Kart 8 is a video game both me and my fiance can enjoy! We've been playing it pretty regularly, but there's still a few things we have left to unlock. I am pretty much in love. It's so gorgeous! The graphics are just so clear and that sort of cartoony-realistic that make you want to jump in! The characters handle great and I love all the new additions they added in. I might do a review of this, but I think everyone's beaten me to it, hah. Of course my main character to race as is Princess Daisy on her fast little bike. I'm actually pretty good at racing games!

This is the last video game this month, promise! Tomodachi Life is either a great or boring game, it all really depends on you. I am definitely going to do a long review of this game. I downloaded it launch day and it hasn't gotten boring or old yet. Tomodachi Life is kind of hard to describe...it's sort of like Animal Crossing, sort of like The Sims, and sort of like the popular app, Line Play. Except, with your Miis. You insert your own Mii and any other Mii your imagination can create into an apartment and see what they get up to. You can change their rooms and clothes, but what they do and where they go are pretty much up to them. If this game sounds unappealing, I wouldn't spend the money to try it out, but if it sounds cute or interesting, definitely give it a go!

Okay, technically this isn't a video game, so I didn't lie! It's an app! Line Play, made by the same people who made the popular Line messaging program and Line camera, is a cute little program where you dress up your character, change their room, and interact with others (except if you're me, then you only do the first two). You can socialize and visit strangers, friends, or even licensed characters such as Hello Kitty, Marie Antoinette from the classic anime Rose of Versailles,  and a bar keep from Dragon Quest. It's pretty cute and a fun way to waste a little bit of time. Line Play is free, but of course you can purchase more hearts to give people or more gems to buy clothes and furnishings. I haven't (and probably won't) used real-people money in this app, but the prices are pretty reasonable.

Okay, technically Tomodachi Life was still the last video game, this is just a gaming apparatus, haha! This is my new baby, a blue (and now stickered) 3DS XL in blue. Honestly  I wanted a pink one, but I got this used, so I didn't get much choice. I also got this for free by trading in some old gaming things I didn't use anymore, so that's pretty cool, because the first store I went to to trade in stuff said I'd still have to pay like...more then $70. Free is better. The store owner transferred all my data over for free, so it's like my old 3DS is living in a bigger body. I looove the bigger screens. It's so nice and immersing.

My second to last favorite is a Korilakkuma phone case for my iPhone 5C. I'm going to go ahead and say that I'm very sure this isn't a licensed product. I got it off Amazon for about one dollar with five dollars shipping. It was supposed to arrive this month, actually, but it came within two weeks! It fits perfectly and isn't in any way cumbersome. My phone was cute before but now it's even cuter!!

My last favorite...maybe shouldn't be in my favorites because I haven't watched or read too much of it yet. But Ai no Exorcist/Blue Exorcist is in my favorites because I had avoided it for too long, never liked what I saw and hated its fans...and then I watched a few episodes and was hooked. Family, religion, and demons? Awesome. I will definitely be watching more, and I recommend it!

I had a lot of favorites, even though it was such a boring month! Hopefully next month has a lot of favorites as well. What were some of your favorite things this month?

As for upcoming posts...I'm going to try and actually dress like a normal human, so maybe a few OOTDs, some game reviews, summer anime first impressions, a link to the upcoming tumblr giveaway, aaand...who knows what else~