Monday, August 8, 2016

June & July (Moving, Job, etc.)

This cat is happy!!

Hey guys, insert generic "it's been a while" statement here! Since my last post, I feel like half a year has gone by, but it's really only been a little over two months. The top part of this post will probably be a bit text heavy with a lot of pictures at the bottom~

Firstly, after we got back it was time to get moving! ...only not, because the apartment we were told we would get approved for we somehow didn't. Still no clue how. Okay. So that was a lot of panic. We had a little over a month before our lease ended at our old place and there were so few vacancies at places we could actually afford. My husband makes a good wage, but because I am now on his insurance, his checks are smaller. I have a whole rant about how unnecessarily stupid apartment and house renting/leasing is that I still need to get out, haha.

But mid June I get a call. A company found my resume on one of the many sites I posted it to and wanted to offer me a position that day! It seemed honestly unreal, so while I was on the phone I was also one-handedly Googling this company to make sure it wasn't a pyramid scheme or a commission type deal. It was legit! So I accepted their offer.

Because I was now hired by this company (being vague for my own safety/paranoia, hah), my husband and I's gross income was now much higher, so we could expand our search for somewhere to live. And we did! We found a great place managed by a sweet woman that's only a little bit away from where we were previously. We got our application approved and had our move-in date set. The only issue date was that our move-in date was also the last day of our lease at our old place. 

When you have too many little knick knacky "where do these go" things

 Moving day was a bit of a struggle, I won't lie. More people were supposed to help, but things came up for them - which I understand. But there was only so much only my husband and I could do by ourselves. Because we had both been working, our packing wasn't even 100% done. I was actually supposed to work the day of our move, but my boss let me take the day off (like, without me even asking for it off. I can't believe how nice that was.). It was a pretty stressful day, but we got it all done (with help from friends of course)!

New place and many boxes

Unpacking has been a little slow going for the same reason packing was such a chore, work. But except for a few of my little things and our posters and pictures and such, we're all nice and settled in. Thus place is a whole lot bigger then our old one and we even have a little kitchen bar! Of course we're still aiming to get a nice in a year or two, once we've saved enough, but for now this place is lovely.

Horus got acclimated very quickly.

As for my job, it's pretty good. As I said above, once I said I was moving my boss told me to go ahead and take that day off. Everyone's very nice there and it's a pretty easy job. The only issue I have right now is a new development for me, haha. When I worked at a fulfillment center, I stood in the same spot for ten hours a day. My sciatic nerve pain was so horrible I actually had to leave after a month (and I liked that job, so I was very upset) even after going to doctors and getting medicine to help manage the pain. I'm on my feet all day at this job as well, and I was a little worried the same issue might happen. It did hurt there for a few days, but now I don't have a lot of sciatic nerve pain. However, my feet. I have never felt foot pain like what I do now, not even when I worked at the fulfillment center and weighed more then I do now and stood for longer hours. It started out being pain in the center, along the tendon, but now it's my heels and it gets worse at night to the point it wakes me up. I'm sure me saying "my feet hurts" sounds like a childish complaint, but to me it felt like something was wrong. I've looked it up and it might be plantar fasciitis. I'm doing daily stretches and taking lots of medicine, and I bought more heel-supportive insoles. I guess I'm managing the pain better, but I can't really say if it's getting any better. That said, if my feet hurting are the worst I have to deal with, that's pretty good.

Unfortunately, still getting acclimated to my job's hours and being tired all the time means I don't have too much free time to draw, write, play games, etc. I know this will change as time goes on, but for now it's a little frustrating to not be able to draw all the time. But! Last night my husband and I were able to go out with friends to the drive-in theater! We saw Suicide Squad and Lights Out...well, I slept through Lights Out. But it was still fun to be somewhere new and socialize.

I'd like to do a favorites post soon with all the things I've been liking recently. I've been trying to do as much as I can with my free time! What do you do when you have free time?

Saturday, May 28, 2016

Today I am 26

Hello! It’s my birthday! We came back from our Disney World honeymoon yesterday and it was wonderful! …but I’m quite sick now, haha. I’ll definitely be vlogging about my trip and such later this week, but for now I’ll just be writing a bit about last year and what I would like for the future. 

When I turned 25, I said, “I have been alive for a quarter of a century and I want to really live my life now.” Or something to that effect. And now, my 25th year is through and I don’t have much to show for it. A little more then last year, but not that much progress, I guess. If you have read other entries in my blog, you might realize that in the past few years, this has become a common theme. I make plans and say I want to change myself, and then I don’t, and I feel sad.

I think I really haven’t known myself lately. I know me from the past, and I know the me I want to be, but I don’t focus on the me in the present at all. It’s always “what can I do to become X” or “how can I get back to Y.” I feel that I know who I am now, though. I am told I am impatient, that I worry too much, that I talk badly about myself too much, and I reply, “I know.” I undertand that I am depressed, that I am overweight, that I am not where I want to be. But I guess I kind of…look past it. There is a straight line between past me and the me I want to be, but when I put my current self into the equation, it gets messed up and I’m like, “what went wrong? how can I now get to where I want to be?” I don’t accept who I am now, I see it as something went wrong and it’s bad and now I need to fix it.

Of course, that’s not to say I shouldn’t want to change and improve. Even if I were living my “dream life” I would still want to better myself. But I shouldn’t see myself as I am now as “bad” or “wrong” just because I went off the path I vaguely had planned. I am here, and I have to accept that, and make a plan from where I am now, not from where I was. 

I am 26 now. I say this every birthday, but I want to make this year the best year of my life and make lots of steps towards something great. These are the things I would like to work towards this year:

HAPPINESS. Overall, this is most important. I feel like I have been a bit better with stopping negative self talk and removing myself from upsetting people or things, but of course I have a long way to go.

MONEY. We are moving in about a month to another apartment. We’re going to stay there for about a year, and while we’re there we’ll be saving for a house~! So I need to find a good job so I can save up! But, I also need to find a job with a schedule that will cooperate with…

CAREER. While I want comics to be the thing I do in life, I undertand that this could just be a hobby forever, and not a source of income, and that’s fine. But I’d like to have a specific field or specialty that I can work in for sure. When trying to figure out what to do in life, many people say you should look at what you wanted to be as a child. I wanted to be a Sailor Senshi, so tht doesn’t really work. But another thing was…something medical. Not a doctor or nurse, but something more behind the scenes. My parents have both worked in many medical settings, and when I was little my favorite thing was going to my mom’s work before school, where she worked as a pharmacy tech in a hospital. So, I’ve decided that’s what I would like to aim for! I’m not sure exactly when this will start, it depends on the school I’ll be getting my certificate from. But, I am excited!!

ART. I feel like lately I have been drawing more then I had been (which was very little), so I am happy. But I’m still not confident enough to post most of it online anymore, and I feel I’ve been very stagnant in my improvement. Lately I’ve been forcing myself to practice drawing things I wouldn’t normally draw or styles I don’t feel comfortable drawing in and I think it’s been helping! I’d love to keep it up!

HEALTH. I feel like now more then ever I am very ready to make changes and stick to them. This includes eating much better and controlling my portions, and being active much more often. This time around, I would like to enjoy the journey, instead of focusing on a goal I have not yet achieved.

DO MORE. I guess this is the “etc.” category. I would like to be more social, online and off. Do more vlogs and blogs. Watch more movies and shows. Play more games. And so on. I would like to feel like I have done things. 

And, I suppose that’s it! I’m sure I will think of more things, but these are what come to mind first. I can’t wait to see what this year of my life brings! 

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

May Updates!

We took a walk the other day~

Hey! Hi! Hello! Let’s try this blogging thing again-again! I guess instead of a long written out thing I just have some bullet points for now.

I have been married for over a month now. Um…nothing new to report there, I guess! Our wedding and reception were very nice and fun! But aside from that, nothing has really changed since we had already been living together, haha. But of course, we are happy.

We also went to our local Jazz Fest!

In a week, we are going on our honeymoon to Walt Disney World! I love Disney World so much but I guess I don’t show it very often, or I don’t really have the chance to. This is the first time I’ll be on a plane without my parents, and the first time my husband and I will be on a trip alone (well, as alone as one can get at Disney). Surprisingly, this makes me feel more like an adult then paying taxes or anything like that.

After we get back, I turn 26! Ah! 26 sounds older. Not older like, you know….older…but, older as in, definitely not a teen or young adult. Just adult. Since my birthday is literally right after we get back, I don’t have any plans aside from eating with my dad. But that’s nice too!

An adult.

A bit after that, we are moving. The apartment complex we live at now was wonderful at first, but now they don’t care about the people who live here at all. I cannot rant about how frustrating this is enough, so expect a blog or video about this in a month or so, haha. We’re not moving anywhere special, just another apartment. But we’re planning to only stay there a year, and while we are staying there we will be saving up money so we can move into an actual house~!

And that is what I have in my future for the next few months. I have some bigger goals I would like to dive into in this year, but I need to figure out the steps I need to take to get there. I’ll probably talk about these in one of the next upcoming posts. 

Until then, here is a vlog I made recently about my favorite things in the month of April!

Have a nice day~!

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

What's New?

Hello from the Yoshi family~

I think I want to blog again so that's what I'm going to do! But it's been six months! Some things have changed. So I think it's time for a reintroduction. 

My name is Bunny and I'll be 26 in two months. In less than a month I'll be getting married to my best friend. We live in a small apartment with the cutest cat ever. I'm not sure exactly what I do with life, but I know I want it to be something creative, probably comics? I want to tell stories and have them reach people. I also really love helping people. Right now my future is a little uncertain, but that's okay!

For many a year I have felt limited in what I can do because of my depression, anxiety, and general fears of failure and such. I'm really sick of that, so I am trying to overcome that. And I think it might slowly be working!

On this blog, I am going to be sharing reviews about pretty much anything and just talking about things in my life that I like and want to share, whether that be fashion, makeup, video games, comics, etc.!

I am going to try and also use this blog as the center point for some things I would like to do - dances posted on my parapara channel, I want to experiment with a podcast because it seems like fun, any art or comic thing I do, and the very rare video.

A few things I am not going to talk about on here that I used to - lolita fashion (I love it to death but I;ve accepted that I don't think I'll be wearing it again), and most things related to mental health/weight loss/self help (because while these are things I like and things I want to help other people with, I I don't feel I am at the point to be able to be helping others). 

Some things that have changed or not changed since my last entry that I had been talking about: I haven't cut or dyed my hair in a long time, I am not going back to school just yet (I'm still not sure what I'd like to do), I really don't feel like making videos much anymore and that's ok (except parapara videos), I really feel like doing a whole bunch at once lately.

So, hello if you're an older reader, or hello if you're new! See you soon~